Eidolon
The Barnard College Department of Dance presents...
SENIOR CREATIVE THESIS CONCERT
And the day seems to have become one with the night
and it seems like death has become life for me
and the beating of my heart appears on the screen
like a constant straight line
and the time that you unwillingly stopped seems like
it has been double as harsh on my face
and has changed me
And I feel the fear in my chest
bitter like left over coffee in a cup
and I see the light in the room of my mind
turning off little by little every day
and in the mirror my face changes
and becomes a different face, that I do not recognize
and it scares me
I feel paralyzed
I feel like I am losing absolutely everything
as though I am going to school for the first time, August
and in my heart the temperature is minus 2
I feel paralyzed
the breaks squeak, the horn screams
the bus brushes past me
and I in the thought that I will have to live longer without you
feel paralyzed
And I see my life like a big wall
erected at the end of the street
and the voices of children in the school yard
sound like a requiem to me
and the road that once took me
outside the door of your house
no longer exists